Me Vs. Myself

Whats good peoples ? So i been doing alot of thinkn as of late, but im not gonna vent to yall today lol. I jus have seem to come across a few questions, for instance : When you realize your doing too much but feeling like you're not doing enough .. what do you do? If you give too much and you still get nowhere, you'll be left with nothing but if you don't bother giving more you'll be left with a bunch of "what if's." See i can only be me and honestly thats i fight i deal with everyday.. Me versus myself ?!?

I mean i feel like i need you, but i can't always trust my judgement. At the same time i would hate to be without you because when we're not together it's you im thinkn about! I feel like, with the right amount of time you'll comme runnin .. But if you dont then my lack of ambition will be every reason we're so far apart! I dont want to call or text and start a fuss, cause im not the press type, nor a smother-lover so im sorry if thats what you like...So i guess i just gotta fight with time, and i hope i dnt lose, cuz i dont want anybody else in my life

Anyway, my biggest problem is myself lol! Personally i believe im makin the problem out of nothing but thats soo much easier to just say rather than to deal with. I was always taught when you want something bad enough you gotta go get it, they left out the part about how to achieve whatever it is you striving for! So ima fall back slowly and take it a day at a time..

Meanwhile .. Being that ive got so attached to Poetry i gave it a try below .. First one soo .. lets see how it goes .. lemme no, but be truthful either way ! 2 peace, GONE !

Amazement

See im .. trapped in amazement,

a maze wich the walls talk and they got me going crazy!

they laugh and taunt til i give in to what they want,

and all i want is for them to stop... so i thought.

Tangled in the vines of frustration i..

take a deeper look at my situation then ..

realize all the hesitation and time wasted is ..

the very reason why this maze is the way it is!

what i want is.. i mean what i need is .. a second.

I need a second to pace myself through the hurdles,

one step leads to the next, in this race... ima play turtle!

if i take you're right, and you're right and you're right and you're right,

ima be fighting for ever in this circle!

However it feels like evrything i do is wrong in they're eyes,

but i gotta see for myself now ,

cause' to fail is to not try!

Suddenly... walls start to crack and i see rays of sunlight!

Voices yell no, do as i say or forever thou shall perish,

But i follow my gut now and get that much closer to the exit ..

The exit in-wich was right there in front of me the hole time.

See the amazement wich was the maze i was facing,

was the inner me and now my location ...

Happiness, and i"ll never let you take it

-Promise